THE TRUTH OF THE MATTER

Poem composed on May 29, 2009



They tell me to marry for the sake of money

Place myself on the high pedestal throne

Even if that means being one of his honeys

As long as I get to have half of what he owns



With this humble heaven blessed beauty

I should use it to make myself wealthy

Through the inheritance of his family

Secure myself well against poverty



Drink the vineyard’s best wines

Along with finest fancy dines

Expensive jet-ride trips overseas

Appear in prestigious magazines



But all I ever need… All I really want…

Is time where the two of us could meet

The only thing I want, the only thing I need

Is you saying that I‘m the one, your only one



Coz for a union, what I truly yearn

Is not how much you can earn

But simply the time you can give

For you are the sole reason I live



When I switch off the bedside light

You are there back home every night

In your embrace holding me tight

Even bad days will just turn right



Morning arrives greeted by your kisses

In which not a single day you ever miss

A simple family with a lot of happy kids

Is better than wishes of material riches



What good is a handsome fine face

If it glances towards another lady

I’d rather caress your imperfect face

Knowing that it looks only at me



I would like to let and set your heart free

To run and roam as far as it wants to be

Confident that you will always return to me

Coz you have finally found your home in me

SOMEONE TO GROW OLD WITH

Poem composed on May 27, 2009

Let us escape
And care not about all
Let problems fade
And let us free fall

Care not about good looks
Take riches off the hook
Never mind about nice cars
For without, you still charm

To ourselves let's be true
And not live in materialistic myth
For in the end all I want is you
Someone to grow old with...

There is this guy who asked me what I am looking for in a guy and I stated my preference (6 points) and when I asked about his he just said one line... 'Someone to grow old with' and it really blow my mind as well as my preference... coz his heart is so sincere and so simple... Instantly my heart was stolen... Yet his heart belongs to another...

UNREACHABLE… UNAVAILABLE…

Poem composed May 26, 2009

Your bb messenger status is unreachable
Your answering machine says unavailable
Just like your character… unreachable…
Just like your heart… unavailable…

No matter how hard
I utilize all forms of art
Trying to win your heart
Still… we grow apart

Teach me to be
The one that you see
Please just tell me
How to make us a ‘we’

For forlorn I am seriously
Trapped in this game so silly
Yet gladly I admit my folly
For I still think of you so fondly

It’s very heartbreaking to get those ‘unreachable’ and ‘unavailable’ feedbacks when you are trying so hard to communicate with that special person… You feel like you just want to tell the truth and get it over and done with, yet the truth needs time… At the end of the day you are still in denial and still want to proceed with the emotional torture…

THE TWO STARS ABOVE

Poem composed May 25, 2009

Two distant stars above
Glancing at each other
In search of true love
Longing to be together

Wandering in the night sky alone
Wondering if they would ever find home
In their journey across the milky way
Both have so many things to say

Yet they never had the chance to share
And never had the opportunity to care
Trapped in two distant galaxies
From far away they can only see

One another they have stared for years
For decades a meeting they have yearned
Pondering if mutual affection can be earned
Yet a real rendezvous both do fear

For the edict of destiny in any merger
Is either a blissful union of true lovers
Or yet another tragic star-crossed lovers
In which they will then depart as strangers

This poem is dedicated to someone who asked me out for a very late dinner and then bailed last minute... I knew the person was going to cancel on me and this poem just sprung from my heart and true enough, after I wrote the first two lines... the person called to cancel... Never thought that my poetry can be this prophetic...

WHAT I FEEL… OH WHAT I FEEL...

Poem composed on May 15, 2009

What I feel… Oh what I feel…
Sometimes I wonder if it is real
Coz’ the wound you left has not healed
It resurfaces though I try hard to conceal

Sitting across you over a meal
I feel… oh my heart is already sealed
Though layers of doubt I tried to peel
Yet my heart is not made of steel

To you this game is a thrill
But to me it hurts it could kill
Trapped in fantasy so unreal
This courtship circus is surreal

THE CONFESSION

THE CONFESSION
Poem composed on May 16, 2009

Please tell me how do I gain access?
To the heart of my lovely princess
Is it the right moment to confess?
If done so now, would I make a mess?

Lord, I beseech You… Please do bless
Your humble servant as I go for the test
For this heart needs a cozy place to rest
And this soul longs to build a warm nest

Over hills over valleys I have searched
For the one with whom I can finally merge
As the blood of my sanity rushes in a surge
I must confess, I can no longer hold this urge

This is coming from a guy's point of view... A humble servant of God who is on the brink of confessing to a girl... I don't know what has gotten into me that I am composing such poem. I guess I am experimenting with the inner thoughts and feeling of a guy in which I can never understand and thus so I guess I am assuming...

BUN, NUN, RUN, GUN, FUN, SUN, SPUN AND STUNNED PUN

Pun composed on May 15, 2009

It all started with a naughty but innocent poem of 'What is your forbidden Wish?
And of course in the poem Brad Pitt was mentioned and it grew to...

KN came up with the word 'bun'
WOMEN....... FORBIDDEN LA...
NOT..... BRAD'S ASS OR TROY BUNS...
PLEASE....... dont tell me that there isnt a good "BUN" in indo...
or a "BUN" worth your while to bite.

Then came the word 'nun'by LG
Dear KN... as much we are God loving women... we are not nuns....

Then came the word 'run' by KN
hmmmm.... i cant pray..
and after talking to LG...
i have seen light and the spiritual part of me..
do tell me.. to run... before LG gets to me.. =P

Those 3 words were the key ignition to the pun and I laid it down as such...
Run to a nun for her bun with your gun in the sun is as fun as this pun?

As usual KN retaliated
where is the nun, with a bun, who claim she has my gun..
in return if i am welling to provide fun under the sun.

And I replied
Oh I thought around the situation spun and the nun took your gun
and then run to save her bun from your fun under the sun
and left you stunned as you are with this pun?

KN hit the ball back with
is this the pun.. with the bun... i am still looking for the bloody nun...
who has my gun.. i am stun.. expecting fun.. it is so hot... as i am still under the sun.

And being me, I can't resist...
KN... KN... KN... in this pun the nun is having fun watching you run
under the sun in your burning bun that she shot with your own gun.

And KN...
damn.... my bun... shot but hurt like being burned by the sun ...
what luck.... got shot by a blind nun... during my hunt for my gun.. sad pun.. stil none.

KS made the final comment
hahah the image of KN running with burning bun under the sun..
got shot by nun JH with his own gun is hillarious...

And that is how the whole bun, nun, run, gun, fun, sun, spun and stunned pun happened...

DO YOU REALLY THINK YOU ARE WORTH IT?

Poem composed May 14, 2009

All: You’re here… Has it all come to an end?

Girl 1: She bores you to death, doesn’t she?

Guy 1: He’s done playing with you, isn’t he?

Girl 2: I’ve heard it all, she rejected you!

Guy 2: I’ve seen it myself… he ignored you!

All: I know! So don’t even try to deny it…

Girl: 1 I’ve informed you she’s unlikeable

Guy 1: I’ve told you he’s not dependable

Girl 2: I’ve warned you she’s unavailable

Guy 2: I’ve cautioned you he’s unreachable

All: But yet you just don’t listen… and…

Girl: 1 Behind my back you insisted

Guy 1: Instead you chose him over me

Girl 2: Tailing her as if a dog you persisted

Guy 2: Together with him you still want to be

All: Now that you are crawling back to me

Girl: 1 I’m already saving my love for another

Guy 1: When I said it is over, it is really over

Girl 2: Dearest… you are in my heart no longer

Guy 2: You really think I’d make you my lover?

All: Did you remember how you treated me?

Girl 1: Two-timed me and even lied about it

Guy 1: Rejected my sincere dinner invitation

Girl 2: Ignored me in front of her when we meet

Guy 2: Through others spreading news of rejection

All: Now do you really think you are worth it?

All: Coz’ I’m not wasting my love on you

When I’ve given everything so true

Yet you always make me feel so blue

With the harsh cruel deeds that you do

So here I am bidding you a good farewell

Intentions of your heart I can no longer tell

Be gone and take yourself somewhere else to sell

If there’s nowhere to go, you can always go to hell

I OUGHT TO KNOW... COZ'...

Poem composed on May 13, 2009

It hurts… I know…
I understand how you feel
Though you try not to show

When she ignored you
And followed another
Right in front of you

When she denied you
And flirted with others
Right in front of you

When she only spoke of him
The whole night long
Till the candles are dim

When she ran next to him
Where she seems to belong
Making your chances slim

It hurts… I know…
I understand how you feel
Though you never did show

I know… I see… my dear
I am listening, I understand
I empathize, I comprehend
I am beside you, right here

When you are next to her
She makes your day brighter
You wish it would last forever
And just for you it is my prayer

When she is silent, she shimmers
As if rose blossoms in the summer
An Angel with soft tender features
That you would just like to capture

Yet you tell me it will never be
That you… she just doesn’t see
Despite that long hopeless sigh
Still… I encouraged you to try

I know… I see… have no fear
I am listening, I understand
I empathize, I comprehend
I am beside you, right here

Sleepless midnights trying to figure her out
The first thing you see when you are awake
And the last thing you imagine before light’s out
Willingness to go through all for her sweet sake

The next rhythm of your breath is of hope to be with her
The pulse of your heart races to find her in your embrace
The loneliness of your soul thirst for companionship with her
The core of your spirit has accepted her weaknesses with grace

I know how true your heart is
I realize how cruel destiny is
I ought to know and I really do
Coz’ that is how I feel towards you…

WHAT IS YOUR FORBIDDEN WISH?

Poem composed on May 13, 2009

A forbidden wish…

Is a desire leading to a bliss

That the heart must not miss

The lips long to kiss

The mind willing to risk

The soul longs to please

A forbidden wish…

Nestled itself in the different shades of grayish

Some claim it is innocent and thus whitish

Others think no matter what, it is blackish

Whatever the shade, it needs to be unleashed

And in the rightful positive manner released

My forbidden wish…

Is to be his

Even if that means ‘one of his’

Oh that face so cute and boyish

But it is not only a forbidden wish

It is definitely an impossible wish

(For the wish is to be with Brad Pitt)

Hahaha… gotcha…

Now… what is your forbidden wish?