NEXT TO YOU, WHERE I BELONG

Poem composed on January 24, 2006

That evening I sat beside you
Separated by one empty seat
Can’t stop stealing glances at you
Heart skipping one full beat

Persistent you were with your cool
I felt like a total fool
Please do realize
That I’m trying hard to neutralize

This emotional eruption
This illogical confusion
This unrealistic illusion
This awkward tension

That you could never guess
That you never cared
That I always suppress
That telling you I never dared

I closed my eyes
Accompanied with a long sigh
Being with you are like all lies
Disappointment after feeling high

I opened my eyes
And found you seated next to me
No, these are not lies
Full of hope I will still be

Love always trusts
Love suffers long
Someday there will be ‘us’
Coz’ I know you are where I belong

Faith and feeling are something very fragile, one moment it is here, the next it is gone. This poem hopes to show just that. It is about a newly budding relationship. It is a mutual attraction, yet the guy is trying to conceal his interest in her. He would sit next to her, but always leave one empty chair between them. It is interesting to note that usually it is the person we are not talking to whom we like. The same way, it is usually the person we have interest in that we keep a little distance from by being cold or aloof. Otherwise if he really has no feelings at all, he would just sit next to her and get it over and done with since there totally is no feeling at all. Make sense? Meanwhile the girl is confused with his behavior. She is trying her best to just get over him but the moment he makes his little encouraging move, she’s back on track in her high hopes.