SEPARATED, BEFORE WE COULD EVEN BEGIN

Poem composed on March 30, 2009

A few steps away…
You stood before my way
The sudden nearing of distance
Had both of us stopped in silence

Looking across at each other
Each of us stayed unmoved
None of us would bother
To make the first move

So far but yet so near
So close but yet so distant
So foreign but yet so dear
So much to say but yet so silent

If this is the closest I can get to you
Then I pray let us stay this way
From that very spot move not away
And let me take a good last look at you

I thought certain things begun
Long before they started
But then why are we separated
Before we could even begin

THANK YOU FOR THE SWEET MEMORIES

Poem composed on March 30, 2009

After today…
I shall bid you farewell
After today…
Away in the deepest part of my heart you shall dwell
After today…
Your name I will no longer breathe
After today…
A mere distant memory you shall be
After today…
It shall be remembered that once I fell in love so simply… with someone
After today…
It shall be remembered that I once put my whole faith… in someone

Perhaps you will never realize…
That once, there was someone who really cared for you for who you are
Perhaps you will never realize…
That once, there was someone who sincerely longed for you from afar

I shall remember… the outline of your face
The touch of your hand… the tightness of your embrace
I will not ask why… I will not probe… I will not ponder…
For I am satisfied with the sweet memories that linger

This poem is the honest emotion that sprung out of my best bud’s heart. I just kind of cleaned it up a little and re-arranged it to rhyme. The feeling of parting with a special someone is indeed heart breaking. Still life continues and the show must go on… One last glance of the past… then in an exhale let it all go… and feel it vanish as vapor…

WINE AND WHINE

Mini Poetry (more like facebook wall comment to an event) composed on March 29, 2009
A friend of mine has just sent out invitation to a closed, friends only wine and whine session – another heart to heart conference…

My response:
Wine and whine
An idea so fine
Allow emotion entangle like the vine
As we think and feel along the same line

With your permission if you don’t mind
And if you can be so kind
Let the drama that was thine
In the form of poetry be transferred as mine...

His reply:
Voila!
An idea so fine
To wine and dine
At an earlier time
Tipsy is in order by nine
And the drama will be yours and mine...

My response:
If misery seeks the embrace of the similar kind
Then the illusion of misery in me please define
For this foolish heart has made me thus blind
With that shadow of someone conquering my mind

Let a little light of compassion shine
To direct this lost soul with a clear sign
In this moment of truth & honesty we shall bind
The gathering where we could all unwind…

FROM MASTER MINE REFRAIN

Poem composed on March 27, 2009

Butterflies in my tummy fluttering about
Sudden constriction of the heart
Eyes dropping low and lips curling into a pout
Eventually breathing becomes hard

If seeing leads to believing
And believing leads to pain
Then let me keep denying
For I cannot bear being thus slain

He had his arms wrapped around her
In a playful nudge she leaned close
Securely nestling herself in his shoulder
Tempting me to act out a violent shove

Not that I normally have such short fuse
But seeing how his heart is already taken
I could neither help feeling so forsaken
Nor accept that I am the girl he refused…

Still… accepting reality I am reluctant
For we did have something for each other
Yet it is written that we could not be together
Towards such destiny I am still indignant

Looking at your smile and hers too
Smiling lines that match and merge as one
United in a mutual wish that shall be done
Combined in a nuptial bliss, no longer as two

Save me from this asthma attack
Release me from this acute pain
My heart could no longer hold back
So please from master mine refrain

I always knew that this day would arrive
And letting you go I always try to strive
But I never thought it would be today
Where goodbye is the only thing I have to say

This poem is an excessive emotional outburst coming from a girl who likes a guy and one fine day she saw a picture of him with another girl. They weren’t hugging or anything, but leaning close to each other to get that snapshot, but being a girl… of course her mind wanders wildly and vivid imagination starts visiting… She knows she has to forget and let the guy go, but her heart feels like shoving the girl away and saying: "FROM MASTER MINE REFRAIN"

ON C AND H

Poem composed on March 14, 2009

The fountain behind trickles
As the sea breeze tickles
Strands of hair dancing around her face
Still amazed… intently he gazed

In the midst of friends’ chatter
Somehow they got lost together
In their own world… retreating
In each other’s arms… indulging

Her gentle features glowing
Glazed by rays of the sun
Tenderness starts growing
In a gentle wrestle of fun

As they glide into the chamber of ease
He slides in a mischievous tease
Her eyes grow larger with innocence
As she tries to grasp the sentence

She gathered her eyelids once in a while
As the confusion inside her piles
When finally he burst into a smile
What follows of her is a reaction quite vile

Once again they were entangled
As laughter broke the silence
Emotion of ecstasy sparkled
That is C and H in an essence

This is a poetry inspired by my dear friend who has finally found the one... We were together in Bali specifically the open air atrium of Bali Deli sitting together in a Bale-bale when this poem emerged... The little water fountain was indeed behind them and I find so much joy watching them all tangled up in warm caresses and embrace... I am so happy for her... He just loves to tease her and she would look at him with her big round eyes occassionally innocently blinking. Ahh... I just love that sweet and cute look on her face and all the more he would tease her...

SO BROTHER AND SISTER LET US BE...

This poem is inspired by a special friend who has some feelings for a special guy, yet she knows she cannot be together with that person due to many barriers… Actually he has too many girls surrounding him and she’s just out of his league, she’s too sincere and too nice for a playboy. In the end, she requested that she be his little sister for that is the only way to keep him by her side forever. She doesn’t want to be one of his lovers turn into strangers… She sincerely wants him forever and so the only possible way is to make him her brother… Upon her request… the guy rejected her on the grounds that he will merely be a distant memory once she’s married… and so this poem is her answer to that…

Poem composed March 19, 2009

A mere distant memory
Right after I marry…
How could you say that?
Stab me in the heart like that?

You know that forever I want you
But I know I mean nothing to you
While you mean so much to me
So brother and sister let us be

To get through life, side by side
Each in our own different world yet together
To brace through storms, ride by ride
Each in our own separate lives yet forever

A simple fellowship and not more
An ear to listen when in fear
A heart to hold on to so dear
Is that too much to ask for?

I cannot bear the thought of being your lover
Entangled in one passionate night together
And in the morning depart as a total stranger
Dissolving into the capricious weather

Please torment me no further
This courage is all I could gather
To request that you be my brother
And let me stay by your side forever

STOP RUNNING IN MY MIND!

Poem composed on March 9, 2009

You must be very exhausted
For the whole of this long weekend
You’ve been running with no end
In my mind, causing me to be agitated

Please do stop exercising!
Coz’ I find it so tormenting
You’ve gotten enough Cardio
So stop invading my private studio

Don’t you have anything else to do!
But to roam around in my cognition
Infecting my poor heart with sensation
Give me a break! Get away you!

Or is it me who needs to do something else?
Me who needs another form of distraction?
Me who needs a productive preoccupation?
To put a stop to this annoying ringing of bells

The poem is about the initial sensation we get for being interested in a person… How that person is constantly running in our mind. It’s really not the person’s fault, but still we blame that person for trespassing our territory. In the end we do know that it’s our own fault for constantly thinking about that person still we cannot control ourselves… sigh…